Who am I

I was doing my YAAD homework today, left the "Who am I" bit til last.
I've read through the questions and have spent the past couple of hours thinking about who I am. What shaped the person I am now? I know that supposedly adults are a product of their upbringing, so our childhood makes us who we are. But I know there's more to it than that.
Do I like who I am? What made me who I am? What would I change about me?
I know relationships (with partners, not family) played a big part in who I am today...but at this moment..I like who I am today. I wont be defined by stereotypes, yes abuse shapes a person, but so does so many other things, there are a million things that make me me.
I am a mother, a sister, a daughter, a grand daughter, a niece, an aunty, a friend
I have OCD tendencies, I like to walk/ dance/ play in the rain. I always worry that I cause things to happen. I love my bed, I hate not having the security of my home, I had my wedding photos done in a cemetery and even though I'm divorced now, I still love the pictures. I used to weigh over 100kgs.....*and has been pointed out by someone who knows, the heat makes me a little cranky :P
here's more........

My full name- Tania Marie
- Age - 36
- Height - 160cm
- Natural hair colour- born blonde, but now it's brown I suppose
- Eye colour - blue/grey
- Number of siblings - 1 sister
- Glasses/contacts - Glasses for reading, driving at night etc
- Piercings - ears and another umm.. place. Had my nose and belly button done a years ago, but they're not in anymore
- Tattoos - 5

- FAVOURITE
- Colour- turquoise
- Band - Godsmack
- Song - too many
- Stuffed animal - my bear Hudson
- Video game - Primal
- TV show - lots
- Movie - lots
- Book -
- Food - oh there are so many..
- Flower- they're all beautiful, but I love roses
- Scent - fresia, rose, gardenia, good food
- Animal -
- Cartoon- Brandy and Mr Whiskers, Spongebob

- DO YOU
Play an instrument? no
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week? no
Like to sing? yes
Have a job? no
Have a cell phone? yes
Like to play sports? not competitively
Have a boyfriend? no
Have a crush on someone? no
Live somewhere NOT in the united states? yes
Have more than 5 TVs in your house? no
Have any special talents/skills? I am creative
Have any faults? I forget bad things people do to me too quickly. I think I can help make people happy.
Exercise daily? most days
Speak any other languages? no
Go a day without food? yes, have gone a few days without it
Stay up for more than 24 hours? have done it
Read music, not just tabs? nope
Roll your tongue? no
Eat a whole pizza? yeah.. sadly lol

– HAVE YOU EVER
Seen a shooting star? yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states? yes... Canada, England, Scotland, Vanuatu
Had a serious surgery? it's all serious
Stolen something important to someone else? no
Gone out in public in your pajamas? yes
Been arrested? arrested, not charged
Done drugs? smoked a few joints
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose? not milk, coffee
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? yes
Been in love? yes
Been to a casino? yes
Ran over an animal and killed it? no
Broken a bone? yes
Gotten stitches? yes
Gone skinny dipping in winter? yes
Made homemade muffins? yes
Been to niagra falls? yes

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth - this afternoon
Saw A Movie In Theaters - about a month ago- Dark Knight
Read a book - this week
Went to the grocery store - yesterday
Got sick - July
Cursed – today
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables - vegies
Black/white - black
Lights on/lights off - off
TV/movie - good tv
Car/truck - car
Body spray/lotion - what ever I'm in the mood for
Pillows/blankets - both
Headache/stomach ache - stomach
Paint/charcoal - charcoal
Chinese food/mexican food - mexican
Summer/winter - winter
Snow/rain - snow
Fog/misty - misty
Rock/rap - rock
Meat/vegetarian - meat
Chocolate/vanilla - chocolate
Sprinkles/icing - icing
Cake/pie - cake
French toast/french fries - chips :P
Strawberries/blueberries - strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool -ocean swimming pool
Hugs/kisses - depends
Cookies/muffins - either
Moon/mars - Moon

FRIENDSHIP
Have you ever been in love? Yes
Are you single? yes
Are you in a relationship? no
Do you believe there is someone for everyone? yes
What is your idea of the best date? somewhere comfortable- warm weather, picnic on the beach with wine, and then a walk. Cold weather- cosy restaurant
What was your first kiss like? On a bus, scared to death
How old were you when you got your first kiss? 13
Do you think love is a load of shit? sometimes when I'm feeling cynical

WORD ASSOCIATION
Free - peace
Space - stars
Taste - chocolate mousse and rasberries
Red - rose
Deep - ocean
Heart - break
Rain - dance
Bed - mine
Jump - joy

I....
am - happy
want - love
need - hugs
crave - hugs
love - too easily
hate - crying
feel - relaxed
miss - travelling
am annoyed by - stupid people
would rather - be in Scotland
am tired of - my sore arm
will always - love my children

SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music? hard rock
What time is it now? 4pm
What day is it? Friday
Whens the last time you called someone? 2:15pm
How much money do you have right now? $7
Are you hungry? no
Do you like parades? depends.. boring ones no, but ones like "Rolling Thunder" in Washington DC was pretty awesome to watch
Do you like the moon? yes I do
What are you going to do when youre done with this? try and nap
If you could have any magical power what would it be? the ability to do what ever I want like Jeanie in I dream of Jeanie
Have you ever had a picnic? yes

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny? yes
pretty? sometimes
sarcastic? yes
lazy? yes
hyper? sometimes, ok rarely
friendly? yes
evil? no
smart? yes
strong? yes
talented? no
dorky? no

WOULD YOU EVER:
Sky dive? yes
Play strip poker? done it
Run away? done it
Not take a shower for a week? god no
Ask someone out? done it
Visit a foreign country for more than a month? went to America for 3 months
Go scuba diving? done it
Write a book? would love to
Become a rockstar? hahahaa