Tuesday, March 31, 2009

It's baaaaaaaaack ....doodle loodle

Spent the night in hospital, dr was worried about ectopic pregnancy because of progressively worsening pain on my right side. So after being hooked up to a drip and crying after poor Dr Ann-Maree poked and prodded my tummy, I had a scan. Gary (the baby's nickname) is in the right spot :)
so she's not ectopic.
Good news
the cyst in my right ovary is back :(

So I'm kind of in limbo at the moment, don't know what's going on

I heard the heartbeat and saw my little speck of dust on the ultrasound, I cried lol

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Well now.. didn't expect this :)

So... little bit over due, nothing new, but the weight loss had made me a bit more regular
Guess what else it made me!!!

Test one, 5.30am this morning, watching the pee move up the window
First line appears,
rightio then,
second line appears,
two lines? that means negative? even though i knew it didn't, next thought?
Oh shit

Second test, yep still pregnant lol


And Arella decided to eat the box :)

We're shocked, especially considering my age and my ovaries, I had a less than 15% chance of becoming pregnant

But we're also very very happy :)
(so no comments asking me if we're happy ok?)

This is the universe's way of making sure Glen and I are never apart again

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Happy Blogaversary to me, 4 years!

Well hasn't time flown
Yes indeedy

It's very handy having a 'diary' to read back on and see what's gone on over the last four years, where my head and heart were and how far I've come.

So what's changed...

I started the blog when I started a PCOS diet study, and I was 101kgs, so that's changed. If anyone has PCOS and is struggling with losing weight, contact Kate Marsh at Northside Nutrition and Dietetics in Hornsby. It doesn't take that long to get there by train or car (from Newcastle) and it's worth it just to talk to someone who can help and doesn't judge you. It was with her help that I finally started losing weight and keeping it off. Don't let any one in the medical profession tell you you have PCOS because you're overweight! It's such a misconception and very damaging.
So yeah, over 20kgs have gone, and I feel great!!

Reading posts about being heartbroken over two guys, one I am still friends with, and the other the Abuser, are sort of bizarre.
I wasn't 'allowed' to post much during 2007, because the abuser got upset with anything I said, there were a few entries, but I deleted them, it was easier than getting yelled at, actually it was usually after I got yelled at that I deleted them, and then I got yelled at for deleting them hahaha. God how did I let someone control me so much! It's ok, I know the answer to that :)

Life is so much better now, I haven't been this happy in years, my relationship with my daughters is fantastic, yes even when they hide important mail from me, I am engaged to the most perfect man for me. We've known each other for over 10 years and we're finally going to be together.. in the same country.. as husband and wife!
He wasn't the first guy to propose to me since my marriage broke up, but he was the first guy I loved, and trusted enough to say yes.

So many changes
I've shrunk, I've grown, I've matured (yes I have :)
I'm happy, I'm relaxed, I've learnt

I don't regret anything, because without those problems I wouldn't have gotten the help I needed.

Life is good!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Free.. two Children...to a home, doesn't even have to be a good one

I am very upset at the moment,

trying to find some good

I had a feeling that there was going to be flat inspection, I kept asking the girls for the mail, but there was supposedly none. When I was in America, I asked if there was a letter from the Real Estate agency, they said no, this morning I call the agent, and yes there was an inspection, this morning while I was out at the dentist. House is an absolute mess! like a "Today Tonight" house and I'm not joking, it's bad. Jet lag and children who hate me every time I ask them to help has not made a clean house.

Plus they saw the cats, I know it's bad and I shouldn't have lied about them, but we were desperate for a house.

I am sickened. Real Estate is not happy, they were surprised considering how clean it usually is.

oh where's the tequila :(

Monday, March 9, 2009

Home again, home again, jiggity jig

Have been home for 4 days, am happy to be here, but it was hard leaving New York too, I was a bit of a mess at the airport and the check in person who I can't remember his name (I was a blubbering mess, that's my excuse) even came to the boarding gate because he changed my seat assignment to make me more comfortable, and Clinton the flight attendant (is that what they're still called?) on QF108, was an absolute godsend. He took care of me, and was absolutely wonderful, have written a letter to QANTAS to tell them so. I have never been treated so kindly by anyone in any kind of service industry, I can't say enough good things about my flight from New York to Los Angeles. And LA to Sydney was pretty damn wonderful too, I have never seen such good people working on a QANTAS flight before, I got lucky.

I loved seeing my girls again :)
It was fun torturing them while they waited for their pressies.

I'm pretty sure they liked all their gifts.

I am a sucky flyer, jetlag stays with me for up to and possibly beyond a week. I'm still waking up between 3 and 4.30am and can't get back to sleep. So I usually call Glen :)
I would use my laptop to keep going with wedding preparations but I've come home to

A BROKEN LAPTOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but no one knows how it broke, flippin laptop pixies who like to break things must have come over while I was gone. Oh and the good part is, my extended warranty with Harvey Norman WONT COVER IT, because they decided it was user fault, cos a broken bit of plastic has made it so I can't even turn it on!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Never mind, it means that I have taken over the desk top which is in their room and have changed the background picture to one of Glen and I and they are under strict orders not to change it, and when they complain about me being in their room I just say 'SHOULDN'T HAVE BROKEN MY FLIPPIN LAPTOP THEN" mwahahahahaha

Have created two new pages for wedding plans, one for Newcastle and one for New York. The date in Australia has been set for November 6th 2009 and New York is sometime after that, maybe the 14th or 21st.

Newcastle http://weddingnewcastle.blogspot.com
New York http://weddinginnewyork.blogspot.com

So family and friends can see where we're up to in our planning cos we're all over the world


jetlag sucks

toodle pip