Wednesday, June 24, 2009

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very very emotional
crying a bit and at everything
doctor's appt yesterday, blood pressure not good, blood tests for kidney issues, checking for pre eclampsia.
I thought I was doing the right thing, going swimming, watching what I eat, I went into my doctor saying how good I was feeling and then she did my blood pressure and big surprise, I bawled. She weighed me, weight up 4 kgs in 2 weeks, I was so shocked I just stood on the scales and stared at the numbers. She didn't even sign my medical release so I can do prenatal yoga, she wants to wait. So back to the doc in a week. I'm thinking about going back to Prince William, I need some clarity, I feel like I'm falling and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I'm so scared that something is going to happen to the baby.
I know being upset is not helping my blood pressure, it's not that easy.
I feel very alone


9 comments:

Lisa said...

you know where i am Tania, where we are- you are much loved and you have sisters who want to share this time of your life with you- please come on Saturday night, please xxx

River said...

Oh no. I hope everything is okay. Try to stay calm. Put your feet up.

jewell said...

it may seem that way now....but baby is ok and so are you. hugs xxx

Myst_72 said...

Oh poor darlin :(

I'm sorry you are feeling alone.
I hope your blood pressure improves soon.

G
xx

Anonymous said...

There's limited evidence of Aspirin supplements having a positive effect on Pre Eclampsia, it may be worth running that by your doc, she might think it's worth a try. Or possibly some other form of blood thinning/pressure control agent, like Atenolol for example. Sleep apnea is thought to be a contributing factor too, there a certainly many things to test for, and resolve that. I'm sure yoga, and other relaxing pastimes will help too. Best thing is (as you say) not to worry! I know it's hard to push it to the back of your mind, but you're really gunna have to. From now till the end of your gestation, you need to relax. Get some candles going, some incense, fuck, maybe even get Baraka rocking, that shit will chill you the fuck out!

Fluffy bunnies to the end! x

Cyndy said...

Just do whatever you need to do to get to the end and meet your baby..... maybe the rest will be a good thing: you've had an incredibly busy time, Tania.

love & light xoxoxoxo

Wendy said...

Cyber *hugs* to you now, Tania, and hopefully real *hugs* on Saturday night. It would be lovely to see you again and it sounds like you needs some support, which is always here whenever you want it.

Sending you love and light and blessings of every kind.

♥ Wendy

Tania said...

Thank you everyone.
I shouldn't have hidden away for so long.
I need you all (even those miles/countries away), I will definitely be at the cottage on Saturday :)

Kerry said...

Hey Tania.

What a pleassure it was to meet such a wonderful woman.

I hope i get to see you again sometime soon.

You just seemed to have a glow about you last night, what a treasure you have growing within.

Kerry