I know.. sickening isn't it, I'm still happy and I'm not even medicated! I'm going it alone without the Lexapro, yay me :) I keep thinking about Glain on monday night saying that she doesn't like it when people smile all the time.. that makes me smile lol Glain has the most beautiful skin, not in a "it puts the lotion on" (silence of the lambs reference... very funny) kind of way... but just beautiful, she so ethereal.
OK.. on with spreading the love
I Love..... Dr E! She's been my doc for over 15 years, she told me when I was pregnant with both of my girls, and even came to visit me in hospital to see Boo (Allira was born in Wollongong) She is a caring woman who has seen me through everything and has been supportive and not dismissive.
I Love.... Radiographers at the place near the Ibis in Newcastle. It's where I ask to go when something needs scanning, x-raying etc. I like that they're friendly and don't say "you'll have to wait to speak to your doctor" when you're worried about something. They scanned my lump yesterday and were happy to put my mind at ease I Love...... Finding out that my lump isn't a cyst! It's a lymph node and should hopefully go down, it's a bit cranky about a festy ear infection.
I Love...... Waking up to the sound of rain :) perfect way to start the day
I Love.... My new fuji s5800 camera that lets me annoy my cat by taking macro pictures
Allira for making the yummiest chocolate mousse, she's turning into an excellent little chef :)
I Love.......
Boo, for what she wrote about me, it made me cry at 3am this morning when I couldn't sleep
I Love.....
Left over chocolate mousse for breakfast!!
I Love.......
Weight loss!!!! 2.9kgs in the last week. And yes I can see where there might be an issue with the chocolate mousse for breakfast but, omg it's so good.
I Love....
Friends in far away places Thank you so much to G for helping me with something, I really appreciate it :)
last for the day.....
I Love
KokoBlack hot chocolate! It is absolutely divine, perfect, bliss, yum happy now Ozz? lol pity the closest one to me is in the ACT, be quicker to fly to Melbourne. I'll meet you at Maccas Ozz :P
I have decided that there is enough misery, so every day I am going to list things I love :)
I love.......
My Girls :)
They happily go along with my insanity! Late Saturday night I said we were going for a walk, small complaints from Bianca, pfft.. like I care. We walked down to the Ocean Baths and jumped in, fully clothed, Bianca in her dress. It was fun! lots of laughs, lots of screams.. water was freezing. Standing on the edge, holding hands and jumping in. These are some of the good times that I wouldn't change for the world.
Glen Always have. Before we even met at the airport in Canada almost 10 years ago, I adored him. No man has ever treated me the way he has. He loved the girls as though they were his own. I am eternally grateful for our chance meeting on ICQ, I still have the ring he made me out of one of those wire twist tie thingies...I wish he could be here for Christmas, I guess I'll have to wait for January... Swap hemispheres and Marry me dammit! :P
I love....
David Duchovny! Yes he was a lusty man in The X-files and 15 years later he's still just as lusty in Californication. Last night's episode had me laughing hard!
I love....
My new found strength I am glad I found it now, instead of still looking for it
I went to Dr E yesterday about the horn sprouting out of my head, bit worried about it, just needed to know what it was...
It's completely unrelated to the ear infection, It's not lymph nodes, it's not a horn, it's a cyst. I have a friggin cyst growing in my head!!! I wish I was a hypochondriac and none of this was real
She said I've been through too much this year, so it wont be cut out til the new year, fair enough. I'm having all day headaches in the right back of my head, I don't know if this is from the ear infection or the cyst, so it's a wait and see thing and back to the doc on Monday.
And my car is still dead
Life is still good though (I only cried a little yesterday :)
have middle ear infection who gets a middle ear infection after the age of 6, I am a multiple of 6. So I am on the only antibiotic that I'm not allergic to and lots of advil whole right side of my head is aching my throat, my eye, my ear, my scalp I feel like shit I'm miserable I'm in tears I'd go and buy myself flowers to cheer me up, but... My car died at the chemist, my portable jump starter recharger thingo is dead too, wont recharge and I have an ungrateful daughter, which hurts the most
Why is it that my ex ex boyfriend's mother (not the last abuser, the one before that) feels the need to call me? She's a nice woman, but extremely domineering and someone you wouldn't want to cross. So when she'd call, I'd listen, and make the occasional grunt, until one night Boo said to me "Why did you give up an hour of your life to talk to her?" A light went on in my head.. exactly! why the hell am I taking time out of my life to listen to her wark on about the son who hurt me? The lying one who convinced me he had bowel cancer and was getting radiotherapy at the john hunter, yeah the john hunter doesn't do radiotherapy! but I believed him when he said he wanted to go alone and didn't want me turning up out of the blue. I supported him through all his friggin custody hearings, got high blood pressure, ended up on all sorts of medication from the stress, and then I get traded in, as his mother said one day "He doesn't need you anymore, you served your purpose" Pfft yes, I SUCK at choosing decent men. She called tonight re: my fish tank which was taken to her place, and she conveniently snuck into the conversation did I "know that the ex is now engaged to the 23yr old neighbour that I was dumped for ?" no I didn't know, "well it was in the paper" I don't care "I just thought you might like to know" fuck off and die. I am soooooooooooooooo much happier not having a mother in-law Yes I am having a 15 minute pity party because I am pissed that everyone, yes EVERYONE'S life is moving forward except mine.... It's a pity party and I am allowed to be unreasonable And I am also the happiest I have been in years, thank Goddess for Prince William and alcohol :P Just kidding, I don't drink... much
Congratulations to Barack Obama and his family! I think it is wonderful that he is President of the United States. His speeches are awe inspiring, uplifting and fills me with hope. Even though I'm not American, I am aware that what ever happens in that country, there is a ripple effect.
So many people voted for the first time, because unlike here, it's not compulsory to vote in the US. When people aged over 100, are voting for the first time, it's quite obvious that they're ready for change.
It's an amazing opportunity
Months ago when I saw him say this
“I think about my own two daughters, Sasha and Malia; and, sometimes it makes me stop and it makes me wonder, ‘What kind of America will our daughters grow up in? What kind of America will our daughters grow up in? Will our daughters grow up with the same opportunities as our sons? Will our daughters have the same rights, the same dreams and the same freedoms to pursue their own version of happiness?’”
That simple speech to me showed how passionate he was about his family, about people, equality and change and I knew he'd win, I just knew as a lot of people did and I annoyed someone with it quite often.
I am well aware that he doesn't have a magic wand to make every perfect overnight But I do believe It is the start of something truly special
He is the President of the United States, and he just happens to be black
Poor Boo is just disappointed that there wont be anymore Sarah Palin videos on Saturday night Live lol
